| YET ANOTHER 6 MONTHS..
Hmmn.. seems like I only come here once in 6 months.
Sorry for the lack of updates, but this will be my last post in Xanga.
Its been a good 4 and a half yrs but its time for a change. I'll post the new link later.
I know people say this every year, esp when the time has come to reflect on the year's happenings and the choices we've made throughout the whole year and their consequences and outcomes. But somehow I feel I've learnt alot this year.
I dont want to go into a lengthy post, so I'll try to keep this as short as possible.
- Learn to let go. Ive been possessive, taking whats not mine and trying to make it work. Ive seen myself in the darkest form and I am not proud of what Ive done. If it doesnt work now, it wont work even if you hold on to it for another one month, or one year. You have to know when its time to let go. Do it whichever way you want, but dont point fingers. Accept that there were good memories and you dont have to resort to hatred to let go of your love. Remember, the opposite of love isnt hate. Its indifference. And its possible. I should know. It wont be easy, and it also takes time but if you try, one day you will wake up and come to realize it wasnt that hard after all and you should have just done it sooner.
- Karma. We talk about revenge as if its something we should take into our own hands. Ive contemplated many times- but if there is one thing I am proud of this year, its not attempting to punish someone by my own standards. Openly telling someone to stop bragging and put them in their place is one thing, scheming and carrying out 'plans' is another. Sure, it may sound fun at first and if you convince yourself hard enough, you're just punishing the person for what they did, right? But who are you to determine how one should be punished? Its not our battle to fight, so lets just be spectators okay? They'll get whats theirs coming to them. Karma, baby.
- You are a product of your environment. I dont blame people for the way they turn out. I dont hate them, or discriminate them; and at times I feel like I understand why they live their lives a certain way, but there are also times I dont. I know there are people who cant stand certain classes or groups of "socially unacceptable" people but that doesnt mean you should degrade someone because of their circumstances. I am not saying I condone what they do, but are their actions really deserving of the words you throw at them? Its not like they ever did anything to you. Sure you can say they CHOSE to be that way but dont forget; the values we hold now have been instilled since we were little and Im not saying that the values my parents chose are wrong/right but the basis of what we understand of right and wrong have been filtered by our parents. So dont try to put yourself in their shoes and say you wouldnt do such "socially unacceptable" things. Because you cant. You werent born into their world, their family. Whats wrong to your family could well be right in theirs. You were brought up with different values. So I guess you are lucky, or unlucky however you want to look at it.
To whoever who reads this, dont be quick to judge that this has definitely got to be about my old lover. Because it isnt entirely, if you know me better you would know what my friends and I have gone through this year. Read carefully. Life just isnt about your boyfriend/girlfriend.. its also made up of your family, and closest friends. To lose loved ones in a blink of an eye is devastating. Be it a break up, or an accident. Something no one would wish upon another. But things like that do happen. And when they do, you can take all the time you want to mourn and be sad, but please remember, it wasnt anyone's fault. Learn to let go. Dont turn all bitter and plot your revenge on whoever you think played a part in causing your sorrow. If they did, they would have it coming to them. Just focus on mending yourself and loving the other people around you who only wish the best for you. Dont blame people for how they act, they were just brought up with different values from yours. If it bothers you so much, then just avoid them instead of talking trash? Because it hurts my ears sometimes. Everyone has a limit you know (:
2009 is just around the corner, and I cant wait to see what next year holds for me. This year has been awesome, despite the heartaches, and I'd do it the same way again if I was given the choice to turn back time. Thank you, everyone who have been part of my life in 2008. I may not show it often that Im glad I have you guys by my side. Putting up with my sharp tongue, my narcissism my annoying habit of making ppl wash their feet before coming into my room, my over-ordering of dishes, my loud, incessant laughter which can be triggered by almost anything, but most of all, for loving me for me.
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